Wednesday, May 13, 2009

Status

This probably seems fairly minute to you, although to me it was a massive milestone. My facebook status changed from "single" to "in a relationship." (And yes, typing a sentence like that makes you feel like you're about 14.) I get that this is fast. But there really aren't words to adequately explain the "thing" that is happening in my life at the moment. Old School came back into my world


completely out of nowhere.


You have to understand...I've spent the last 18 months of my life desperately wanting to believe that Ex wasn't the greatest love story I would ever experience. I mean, really...THAT'S what I get to look back on as the "love of my life?" Are you freaking kidding me? It just seemed like such a waste! That's not to say that I didn't love Ex with my whole heart. I did! But when things ended the way they did, it just seemed like a waste of a really good story. Since the divorce, I've dated A LOT...and all of the guys were perfectly nice, and most of them were even perfectly normal. But none of them were perfectly RIGHT. There was never a time when I felt compelled to completely take myself "off the market" for fear that as soon as I did, the RIGHT GUY would come along.

So I never completely took myself "off the market."

And low and behold, the RIGHT GUY came along. I realize that's a bold statement. I realize that it's only been a week. But the truth is that it's been 20 years....and Old School is as much my FRIEND now as he was when we were 8. Except now, there's kissing involved. : )


REALLY. GOOD. KISSING


So yesterday when he asked me a question that I first heard from his lips 20 years ago under the elementary school playground slide, "Will you be my girlfriend?" there was no hesitation. There was no fear. There was no reason to cash in the moment on the logic of "it's only been a week." As we have talked about our lives and pasts over these few days, the only thing that makes sense in all of it is that God was at work in all of the brokenness to bring us to this place. Neither of us have had it easy over the past few years. Neither of us understood the why's and how's, but no sooner had we downed a cup of coffee and a green tea...it made sense.

Is it too soon to call Forever? Maybe. Is it too soon to call it for real? Not even close. For the first time since my divorce, ever part of me is IN, and there is absolutely no fear.

And damn, that's a good feeling.

9 comments:

Jen said...

I am so stinking happy for you! I still feel the need to meet him and give him the Momma J stamp of approval, though. ;-)

Stephani said...

I love it!!! I love that you are happy and that I got to comment on your FB status change:)!!! I hope that everything works out with OS and that bells ring in the future!! You deserve to be happy!!!

Amy said...

Sunday can't come fast enough...

Jen said...

Oh, if bell ringing is in the future, I call dibs on a bridesmaid position. I've never gotten to be one before.

Nelle said...

Awww, I'm so happy for you! You know, when you first blogged about him, I had a feeling this would turn into something good. Don't know how, but it was just a gut feeling saying, "Wow, she might just end up with this guy."

Enjoy :)!

HappyascanB said...

Oh YAY! YAY! YAY! I knew at the start of our 2nd date that I would marry my husband. So I believe in these feelings early on. I'm so excited for you!!!

Jaycee said...

Yay! This is so exciting and I am so happy for you! There is something to be said for that peaceful feeling . . .

Elizabeth said...

Yay! Congrats to you. Hope it all works out happily ever after. :)

Lora said...

Eek! This is so exciting and I'm thrilled for you!

(we may need to walk and talk and java soon...)